e-r-A-s-i-n-g

isn’t it weird? hard to forget something you want to and equally hard to assimilate what you have to? things cannot be simple. complexity is a compulsive element. i want it out of my head since long but i can’t. i tried music, i tried reading.  it keeps on reciprocating. it manifests to a higher level, it lessens. it comes back. complex. weird. a bit calm now, but for how long? i do not feel like getting rid of the thought, but i so need to. if the person in the thought does not care, why should i give a f about it? it’ll get better. just a hope that it will. or if there isn’t any, then i pray for a ray. didn’t know that erasing would be so arduous.

what do i need? NO.

what i don’t need? YES.